Psalm 10:1
Why do You stand far away, Lord?
Why do you hide Yourself in times of trouble?
Do you feel like God is hiding from you in the times that we live in? Why or why Not?
During the times that I was in a deep, dark sadness and despair over many things, I felt like God did not see or even acknowledge my pain and sorrow. I questioned God why all these things that upset me took place and even wrote a blog post about it.
My struggle was with a passage of scripture and the harsh reality of my own life (from my own perspective )not too mention what all that people have suffered in this life here on earth. The scripture that I was grappling with was Romans 8:28 “And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God and are called according to His purpose.” My mind was stuck on this verse while in my life I felt as the writer of Psalm 10:1 , but now read the rest of Psalm 10:17-18 with me. “Lord, You have heard the desire of the humble. You will strengthen their heart, You will make Your ear attentive to vindicate the orphan and the oppressed, so that mankind , which is of the earth will no longer cause terror.” I cried for many years and sometime in 2010 “Why God, Why God? Why did these things or not happen in my and life and God answered me.
God said to me and I wrote it down as post in this blog in the year of 2010.
“It is for your good and My glory not your own!”
I am now reminded of a favorite verse of mine in Jeremiah 29:11 -14″For I know the plans that I have for you , declares the Lord, plans for prosperity and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me, and find Me when you seek Me with all your heart. I will let myself me found by you declares the Lord.”
If GOD was hiding from Me, then He was hiding in plain sight as I couldn’t see past the pain and the suffering. As I look back and remember the condition of my life and my heart, The LORD is showing me as I reflect, that I was the one trying hide just like Adam and Eve in the garden of Eden when they ate the forbidden fruit. The devil as represented by the serpent enticed Eve to eat the fruit and then she gave it to Adam, and when they ate of it their eyes were indeed opened and they saw their own appearance and were ashamed..(read Genesis 2 and 3)
What Adam and Eve saw when their eyes were opened , opened up evil into their eyes. They saw themselves as they were and tried to cover themselves and Hide themselves in the garden away from the LORD. They were the ones that made the distance between themselves and GOD as a result of sin, “wanting to be like God. Knowing good from evil” The truth is that they already knew what was good before they ate the forbidden fruit. They had a pure relationship with GOD before they ate and after they ate tried to cover it up and hide like a child hiding from their parents after they break a precious heirloom piece of china.
How can one be so deceived that he or she thinks in their heart that they can hide from God, yet in my own life I was deceived until the day in a time of seeking the LORD as with all the memories that plagued me day and night. God showed me that He indeed saw everything that happened to me as well as the sins that I had done! Yet I wanted to have a fit and push the LORD away but as I He told that He loved me for “me”. He loved me with all the mess and He himself filled the deep chasm in my soul with His Spirit.
God allowed what all happened in my life then for His purpose in my life. He took a broken, terrified girl and through much striving against Him so that I could learn to be still in my soul and know that He is GOD and I am not. He is the Creator of not only the earth and everything that is in it but also that He is the Judge and I am not. He takes the pain, the trauma, and everything that the devil does to us are as a result of God’s permission for His divine purpose to drive each of us to our knees to say… “we don’t have the answers to life’s hardest questions…. we don’t have anything good in our lives without HIM in it.”
So, those that are on my heart to pray for during these two months are as follows:
- The lonely.
- Those who feel that they are outcasts.
- The orphans and those in broken in homes.
- Anyone who felt the deep sadness over these two months, my prayers are going to the LORD for You.
- Pray for the leaders in every nation and then pray that they will be blessed with the knowledge of “Who GOD truly is.”
Finally, as I am reminded in the book of James 1:26-27, remember these verses as you celebrate with family and friends over the Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year’s gatherings:
“If anyone thinks himself to be religious, yet does not bridle his tongue, but deceives his own heart, this person’s religion is worthless. Pure and undefiled religion in the sight of God our Father is this: to visit orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself unstained by the world.”
Be blessed in knowing that the LORD goes behind and before you in all things! Amen!
Living Fountain 