Living Fountain

The struggle of having mixed emotions with an undercurrent of anger riding all through it. This has been my life the past couple of weeks. The first week it displayed itself with a headache that would not leave until I had migraine medicine. The second week of this began of Monday this week and on Tuesday I was in total struggle with tears flowing down my face and did not have the sense of time that day. I was at a breaking point and I felt all alone. Music did not soothe me nor could I verbalize what was happening. Images of myself being harmed in multiple ways came before me in my mind, I seized in anger and all kinds of sadness welled up. I called out to find a new therapist to talk to and could not see one that day but got much prayer. After writing what made me angry in a notebook, I was able to release some of the emotions and the next day went to work and then on to the therapist.

I met the therapist and for the first time I was introduced to Cognitive Behavioral Therapy which means to me that I get to approach therapy as an expression in writing and then verbalizing which I do way better at. Where as I can write well I have a hard time verbalizing what I feel but can do it better with writing.

This was an answer to one of my prayers. Yes, I know Philippians 4:6-9 and also to approach the Lord about it first but even King David who was a man after God’s own heart was able to write about his emotions and questions down. Just read the Psalms and you will see and feel it also.

It’s okay. It is okay to angry over unjust things in this world and question where the Lord was and why did He allow it to take place. After all the LORD is the Creator of this earth and is in control over every aspect, Isn’t HE?

The LORD had heard and knew every evil thing that would happen in my life and the world around me before I was even born He knew it. Psalm 139 is one of my favorites. Read it sometime it will encourage you.

Take courage dear Child of the Living GOD, He loves you just as He does me. Be encouraged that the LORD does indeed hear you and He wants you to come to HIM with every thought and emotion that you experience in this life. Takes some time now to WRITE! LISTEN! THINK! AND THEN OBEY HIM!