As I am listening to Francesca Battistelli song, ” Write Your Story” , I am thinking about my own life and how God has written His story in my heart and life. Each and every day I get up I have had the mentality to just God let me get through this day instead of God how do you want me to use my day. It’s true that I thank HIM everyday for the ability of waking up and having another day on earth. I thank HIM for the things I have but what if I invited HIM to take part in my day. I don’t necessarily mean working on Bible studies, reading the Bible, writing, and seeking HIS face, those things are good but what if I invited talked to HIM while doing the dishes, the laundry, cleaning the toilets etcetera in my home.
I am in the midst of being in two Women’s Bible Study groups and doing two different Bible studies. The first one I am doing is a Beth Moore study on David and it is the updated version and I am working on week 4 and just finished Day 2 tonight. The second study I have done before but it has been revised and has a video series with it is Joanna Weaver’s Mary Heart in A Martha. The two studies are working together nicely for me in the season I am in. There is always new facet or nugget of truth that God places in my heart with each study of the I do in the Bible. Even when I am “just” reading the Bible I can’t help but to keep in study mode. I find it hard to just read it without studying it too.
In answering which of the two sisters I am more like in the Mary/Martha study. I am definitely a Mary when it comes right down to it although there was a time several years ago when I was neither a Mary or a Martha. The years 2003-2009 were the hardest years for me as I was going through the healing process of my childhood physical and sexual abuse with an witchcraft/occult mixed in my life for the first 6 years of my life at least. During these years I was so focused on myself and what happened to me that I could not see past it. I worked off and on but I did not clean my apartment until it got so bad that people would not visit me. I was a hard person to be around. I was also in state where I went to everyone else for sympathy for what I went through instead of going to the LORD for healing and pouring out my heart to others instead of going to God first. It is true we do need the body of Christ to minister to us through the power of the Holy Spirit. It is the LORD that I needed and I was fortunate that the people that were and are continuing to be in my life having always pointed me to the LORD. I remember saying and feeling afraid of being set free from all of it because I did not know if I would like myself after all of that was gone.
I am here to tell you that I do enjoy who I am now and yes there are times when I do fall backwards but THE LORD is there to pick me up and instead of going to everyone else I go to HIM because HE is Good and HE only wants the very best for me. When I pray I can relate to the LORD being the best Father because God placed me in the care of a good, God fearing couple, Dub and Pam, who I can call not only my parents but also mom and dad to their faces and hug them. I can tell you that I love them and if God can bring me out of a horrendous situation that He can pull you out of the pit with the help of body of Christ that surrounds you.
For those who needed to read this I say this to you:
MY God is a faithful God!
My God is loving and compassionate!
My God is the GOOD Shepherd and cares for you!
If you are going through the ringer of life turn and pour your heart out to the LORD and HE will hear and answer you in HIS time.
Living Fountain 